Bottled Up (2020 - 2021)

Bottled Up revolves around my own emotions from what I experienced in my childhood and entering my college career. Due to overwhelming situations, I could not express my feelings rather I hid them away. This results to the phrase “bottled up”.

Over the years, I made myself busy with different task from my personal life, being employed, and my studies. I didn’t think about the later issues rather I told myself to keep busy. I became overwhelmed and thought I could accomplish everything I can think of doing. I thought all of these accomplishments were going to be celebrated but rather, there were things, the littlest things, were noticed. Those “little things” were mistakes and errors that I did not see. My attention went towards those little things and it broke me. I kept thinking to myself, “do people really care?” You would say to me, “don’t think what other people say” and that’s right, but they’ll still say it. I underwent through some serious emotions and eventually sought for help.

I use ceramics as a way to get away from everything else in my life and do something with my hands. Being able to manipulate the clay, makes me feel in control to create different shapes that are all unique in their own way. Each ceramic bottle in this series represents an emotion. Some emotions are translated in Tagalog, Filipino language, to portray the feelings of my childhood memories. 

Evolution: Depth of Feeling (2020)

Previously featured at the CSUEB Art Gallery, Alumni Show | October - November 2021